Monday, March 4, 2013

A piece of my heart has been left behind..... in Kenya

Much the same as I am not very diligent with blogging, I was not very diligent with journaling on my trip to Africa so I have decided to do a "brain dump" on my blog in hopes to get many of my thoughts, feelings, and memories that I missed journaling.

... where to begin - what an amazing trip........


As we were driving to the airport on Thursday, February 14th it suddenly became real - oh my gosh, I am going to Africa today!!  With the many things that were going on in the days, weeks, and month leading up to this trip I really hadn't had a chance to let it sink in that I was actually going to Africa for 12 days.  It also began to don on me that I really did not know a single other person that was going on this trip with me... little did I know I would come back with MANY new, wonderful, amazing friendships.

Jimmy and the kids came to the airport with me and helped me to check my luggage etc. and since there was no other options, we settled for a lovely family farewell lunch at McDonalds.  Ashton & Rhyse were thrilled of course - pretty sure this was my first Valentines spent eating a McNuggett meal, but it was nothing short of perfect.  As I stared at the kids and began to tear up, I prayed to God that He would keep them safe and bring me back home to them in twelve days a better person.  As we said goodbye,   Ashton was the most emotional.  He held me tight as I did the same and was crying while telling me he didn't want me to go.      

                        ...    IT WAS SO HARD TO SAY GOODBYE

Two plane rides, and 16+ hours later, we arrived in Nairobi.  It was evening there, and all 95 of us eventually boarded a few buses that took us to our home for the next week - the Grace House.  I can honestly say that I was terrified at the thought of where we were going to be staying for the next 12 days, however I couldn't have asked for anything better.  The Grace House staff were there to greet us with song and dance when we arrived, and we felt instantly welcomed to Kenya.


Saturday - MORNING COFFEE.... I can not express how much I LOVED sitting outside in the courtyard every morning before we left, with a few cups of Kenyan coffee which was by far the best coffee I have had in my life thus far!!  (and I have had a lot) The coffee was amazing, but I think what made it even more amazing was not only enjoying it outside but also being able to sit and reflect on what I had seen and experienced.  It was also a time where many of the new friendships that I gained began to form.  Today, was the beginning of this daily ritual that I so loved.  We all boarded the bus, and drove to what would be our other new home for the week - Missions of Hope International.

The students of Missions of Hope greeted us with joy, excitement, song and dance when we arrived and our hearts were instantly warmed by these sweet children.  They put on a production that consisted of more singing and dancing.  There weren't that many dry eyes in the house.  It was on this day that we took our first tour of the Mathare Valley which is one of the worst slums in Nairobi.  The "shanty's" that people live in are no larger than my bathroom, and often house 5 or more people.  It truly is indescribable.  Throughout the week we learned many things about life in the Mathare Valley:  the life expectancy of many of the people of the valley is to the age 40... although many of the children have been blessed to be able to go to one of the Missions of Hope schools where they are educated and also fed, there are so many others who do not go to school at all.... a LARGE percentage of the girls who live in the valley are raped by the age of 12 (by large I mean over 80%).... although I do not remember the percentage, AIDS is prevalent in Africa, but even more so in the valley... in so many, poverty is inevitable, and next to impossible get out of... despite all of these overwhelmingly depressing facts, there were smiles on the faces of almost all of the people.  I can honestly say that you would have a better chance in seeing more happy faces on the people of the Mathare Valley than in the faces of people walking around downtown Chicago.  These people are happy.   They are not asking for expensive cars and fancy houses to continue to be happy - all they want are food, clean water, and education for their children.  This was a huge eye opener for many of us.  It is nearly impossible for our greedy society to understand how these people can be happy with the situation that they live in, but their smiles say it all.







During the middle of our tour of the Mathare Valley we were invited into a womans house.  This house was definitely no larger than my bathroom and housed 6 people.  The womans name was Nancy, and she had five children.  Through the interpreter, she told us that they all slept in the same bed, and that she hoped her children would have a better life through the education that they were receiving at MOHI.  At one point while sitting in her house I began to cry.  The emotions I was feeling were overwhelming.  I did not understand why people would have to live like this.  It isn't fair.  I couldn't in a million years imagine being worried about a simple thing such as clean water for Ashton and Rhyse.  Before we left, we prayed with Nancy for her and her children.  I hugged her and told her that I would continue to keep her in my prayers.  I could tell that she was a good mom who loved her children just as I love my children... the difference was that my children are blessed with endless opportunity and fortune, whereas her children are merely blessed with a tin roof over their head.



These were the walls in Nancy's house, and how she kept track of her kids school, doctors appts. etc.










The front of Nancy's house









We returned back to the Grace House later that evening, and I was in bed by 830 pm which for the duration of the trip was my bedtime each and every night.  I was so exhausted - physically and emotionally every evening from the days events that nothing felt better than to get into bed, pray, secure my bug net around the bed, and fall asleep.

SUNDAY - we drove out to Joska which was where MOHI has their boarding schools.  They have separate ones for girls and boys.  We went to the boys school first, and then to the girls school.  Although I enjoyed our visit to the boys school,  I loved our visit to the girls school.  It was through these visits that we saw how MOHI has changed the lives of so many from the Mathare valley.  These kids were all so brilliant and had so many hopes and dreams for their future.  I sat in the field with a group of giggly girls ranging in age from 12-14, and as they asked me questions about my life and me about theirs,  it crossed my mind that these girls are "safe" here.  A majority of the girls told me that they loved it at the Joska boarding school, and I am certain a large reason for that is the feeling of being safe.  Just another thing that we take for granted daily.  All of these girls had a great love for God, and weren't afraid to proclaim it - how wonderfully refreshing these young girls were.  ** sidenote that should have been mentioned earlier --- when we arrived at the girls school, the girls of course greeted us with singing and dancing ... one young girl with the most beautiful smile grabbed my hand when I got off the bus and led me in to the area where everyone was dancing.  When the dancing was finished she guided me to a seat and said "My name is Gladys, please don't ever forget my face".... tears formed in my eyes as she hugged me and walked away.  After the program, she came and found me and wanted to introduce me to her sister whose name was also Gladys.  She then began to tell me how she has lived at the boarding school for three years now, and she absolutely loved it there.  She told me how it was the best thing that had ever happened in her life, and that now she had hopes and dreams for her future.  At one point she was explaining what her life was like in the Mathare Valley, and her smile disappeared from her face and with a dark, distant look in her eyes she said "it is a very bad place"... I can not even begin to imagine what went on in her life in the Mathare Valley, but one thing I know for sure is that I will never forget her beautiful face.




Monday thru Friday - During the week is when all of the work amongst all of the teams took place.  I was part of the medical team, and we set up shop in one of the dirt classrooms where we saw over a thousand patients during the week.  One of the biggest issues that people had were respiratory problems... in fact after being there for a week, I clearly understood why there are so many respiratory issues... the air is far from clean, and the dust in the air is somewhat unbearable.  Of course, there are the other major complications that many suffer from - HIV, Hepatitis, Typhoid, and the list goes on.  To sum it all up though - it was an amazing feeling to help these people.  This is bottom line of the whole trip - although we went there to help the people of Africa in any way that we possibly could - they helped us just as much as we helped them.  My life is forever changed by all of the beautiful people that I met.





Myself and Benjamin, a Kenyan Nurse whom I worked with.  He was educated his whole life through North American families that sponsored him as his own family was beyond poor.   Without sponsorship, he said he would have never had a chance to get educated.









Me and Maryann... this was the room that we saw patients in.
                                                        A few of my beautiful patients
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On Saturday, most of the group went on a Safari while a small group of us were to take a flight North to see our sponsor children in Turkana.  Before we went to the airport, we stopped at a Giraffe park and a baby elephant rescue park.





I am not a fan of airplanes, much less small airplanes and on Saturday afternoon we flew to Turkana to join in the dedication of the new school and to meet our sponsor children.  Our group of 22 pretty much filled up the whole plane which tells you just how small the plane was.  The flight was a bit bumpier than my liking at times, but the main thing is that we made it!!  We arrived in Turkana where the temperature tends to be MUCH, MUCH hotter in the late afternoon and were very surprised at the airport terminal... or lack thereof!  It quickly donned on us that we were very much in a far more rural area than Nairobi.  I was very concerned with what type of accommodations we were going to have as I had heard that there were a lot more bugs, including scorpions, in the area and I knew that there was a good possibility that our lodgings might be a tad sketchy.  I must say I was PLEASANTLY SURPRISED when we pulled up to our new home for the next two days!


 
Once we were settled in, we had dinner and went to bed to rest up for what was going to be a very busy two days.

Sunday - this was one of my favorite days of the entire trip... it also happened to be one of the longest and most exhausting days of the entire trip!!!  We were up early, had breakfast, and were all picked up to drive out to "the bush" for Church.  Let me mention something first about the concept of time in Kenya -- there isn't much of one.  This can be a good thing, or a bad thing, but either way for us North American's (I still have a hard time classifying myself as an American), it is very hard to get used to.  We all got into our respective vehicles for what was one of the scariest drives of my lfe.
It was not the fact that I had to ride in the back of this sweet ride that was scary, it was not the fact that we were stuck in this non air conditioned vehicle for well over an hour, it was not the fact that we were driving through potholes that were the size of large craters on planet mars.... it was the fact that our driver was the only Kenyan I had met who apparently did have a concept of time and seemed to be in a hurry to get to Church which we'd later realize had no start time anyway!  He drove at 900 miles an hour through the desert and when I nicknamed him "mario" (short for Mario Andretti)... he seemed to like this and felt an even stronger desire to speed and live up to his new name.  It also didn't help that those in the car who weren't soiling their pants felt the need to egg him on when we were behind other cars saying to him that he was in 2nd or 3rd place and needed to be in 1st place.  Once again, we made it to our destination safe and sound - God really was with us on this trip, and although many saw it through the work and love of the children... I saw His presence in the fact that our transportation got us from point A to point B ( I did not even mention what the bus drivers were like in Nairobi -- that is cause for a completely separate "praise God" blog).  All joking aside, we were in a desert, there were camels and goats roaming freely, it was 110 degrees, and signs of what we know as civilization became few and far between.  They say a picture is worth a thousand words and since this blog is getting far too long....

these should give you a pretty good idea how far away we were from what we consider "normal civilization"








Church was not in a building, but rather under a tree,  however rather than begin the service we toured the area for about an hour first.  Some of the people from Christian Missions Foundation showed us the farm work they are assisting the people with (yes, farming in a desert).  They get the people set up with seeds and a plot of land in a solar irrigated farm area, and the people are then responsible to farm the land.  With the help of a translator, I spoke to some of the people who were working on their plot of land, and they told me how this farm land has changed their life.  The translator explained to me that people starving to death is a reality in Turkana... although I know this is a reality, the concept of actually starving to death is so hard to grasp.

When we arrived back at the tree for Church, there were many people ready to greet us.  I had heard from someone else that they had already been singing, dancing and worshipping for the past hour.  Kenyan's love to sing and dance, and these people were no different.  It was also very apparent that they had a strong love for God.  No other way to describe this Church service other than it was Amazing, and God was definitely present.


                              We felt so welcomed at this amazing Church service under a tree!!



The music was awesome - no bells and whistles - this was the drum - an old metal gas can!!!



After Church, we walked in the area where we were taken to a homestead - there are two things that I still cannot wrap my head around - firstly that these people actually live in straw huts, and second that the men are able to have several wives...  it felt like I was in a National Geographic magazine... this really happens??!!  Afterwards, we headed back to our rooms for a MUCH needed shower.  We were COVERED in dust... unfortunately, the water sytems (toilet flushing, showers, warm water etc) are not overly reliable in Africa and when I turned the shower on, we had no water!  We did not have much time before we left, so my roommate and I decided to bathe ourselves with baby wipes... the amount of dirt that came off of my body was unbelievable!!!  Next comes one of my favorite parts of the whole trip.....

MANASE NAKUA EPUNGURE



A slight bit cleaner, we headed to the school where we were to meet our sponsor children.  We have sponsored a seven year old boy, Manase for about a year.  We sponsor him to go to school where he receives an education which he would not get otherwise, and he also gets fed... which he may not get otherwise.  When I saw the group of children, I knew immediately which boy he was.  I hugged him tightly, told him I loved him and was so happy to meet him.  He looked at me with a strange look, and it was then that I realized he doesn't speak any English at all!  Up until this point, all of the children that we met in Nairobi spoke pretty much immaculate English that they had learned at a Missions of Hope school... however this school just opened a month prior, and considering where they live, it makes sense that he wouldn't speak English.  A translator helped us, and it took a few minutes, but we were able to have a conversation full of smiles and laughter.  I gave him a bunch of presents which he was so thankful for.  I asked him what he would like me to send him in the mail, and I know that if it was my children, they would start rattling off a list that took them ten minutes to finish and then return to tell you the things they forgot ten minutes later.  Manase simply said that he would be very grateful for any gift that I would want to send him.  Tears came to my eyes, and I felt love - it was at this moment that I felt that Manase truly was a part of our family. 

















Once it was time for Manase to return to his classroom, we were asked to be involved in a dedication of the new school which involved splitting into groups and praying in each of the classrooms for the future of the school, the future of the children, and the future of the community.  It was a very moving experience.  We then all gathered together and joined hands in prayer outside the school.  We all took a few moments to pray on our own, and for some reason Irene came to my mind.  Irene is a woman who babysat me from a very young age.  She was always very special to me.  She is the person who taught me a lot about Jesus and being a Christian.  She was an amazing God loving woman.  Irene was like a second mom to me, and passed away four years ago.  When I went through my RCIA classes and was baptized, I chose Irene as my Saint, and I truly believe she is an angel watching over me in heaven.  As I was praying, Irene came to my mind and I began to think and pray about her watching over the children also.  It is a feeling I can not explain as I just felt that she was there, and present with me in that moment.  When we were done in prayer there was a group of children waving and shouting hello as I walked past.  I said hello back and smiled at one little girl.  As I walked away, I felt something inside me pulling me back to her... I walked back to her and she hugged me.  I asked her what her name was... she responded - Irene.
                                                                        Me and Irene


There are so many special moments that I experienced while on this trip, and I could write a novel about all of the ways that God was present,  all of the things I learned about myself and about others,  and how it changed me.  It truly was life changing.  Would I do it again?  Absolutely.

Saturday, October 13, 2012

Seriously... Where does the time go?

I can not believe how long it has been since I last posted a blog ---slacker!!! ..... anyway, here are some of the things that are coming out of my fast growing little lovelies mouths these days.  Never a dull moment:)


Ashton: I think my Dad is going to take me hunting soon....
Me: Oh really?  What for?
Ashton: probably just some lizards and stuff.


Rhyse (anytime she is wearing sunglasses): Look at me... I'm a movie star!


Rhyse (whenever Ashton copies her): Stop coffing me!


Me to kids: I think I am going to buy a piano for the front room
Ashton: Yay, then we can all sing songs together before dinner every night


Ashton (reading a story to Rhyse): I used to love this story when I was a kid..... (keep in mind, he can't read either)


Ashton: Mom, all the big girls at my school just love me - one even said I'm as cute as a button


Rhyse (in the car when we are stopped behind another car): Go toopid!


Me to Ashton: I love you all the way to the moon and back and then some
Ashton: I love you more... I love you all the way to Canada






Sunday, April 15, 2012

grace

Grace.... I love this word.  I love it because to me it defines my life here on this beautiful earth...

Sinner saved by grace. 

 I wholeheartedly believe this, and am thankful everyday for the grace of God.
Today however, the word Grace has me thinking of Ashton.  Recently he has been the one who recites our grace before dinner (btw, thanks Auntie Janet as we use the one that you taught us as kids), and tonight since I was at work, I did not get to hear Ashton say Grace.  Rhyse also likes to pipe in an "amen" at the end!!  Although I do love my new job as a nurse, I miss these little moments everyday that make our days so special and memorable.  On days that I do have to work, I try to pack in as much fun family time as I can before I have to leave.  This morning it was playing on the swing in the yard, and a bike ride.  I spoke to Ashton before he went to bed on the phone, and he said he was going to leave a picture that he drew on the table for me for when I get home.... I can't wait!

Thursday, March 1, 2012

in the blink of an eye...


My bestie Karyn messaged me today, and said " I always thought you were crazy for crying about Ashton getting married and growing up... it all makes sense now".... Karyn had a beautiful baby girl, Charlotte,  a month ago, and I was so lucky to be able to be there for the birth of this little angel.  It truly was amazing.... When Ashton was only a few months old I looked at him and started crying as I thought to myself, one day he is going to have a new girl in his life, and I will not be his number one anymore.  I wanted him (and still do) to be a mama's boy forever, but more importantly I could not believe how fast he was growing and changing every day.  I called Karyn and cried to her about this.   Now as I think back to that day, I can not believe that was almost four years ago!!!  With my life being so crazy busy right now with far too much going on, I look at Rhyse and Ashton every day and think -  what happened to my babies?????... Ashton is at the stage where his brain is literally like a sponge and he is learning so much, and of course I am bias but he is SO STINKIN SMART!!!!!  And then there is Little Miss Rhyse - what a little lady that one is!!!  She is also SO STINKIN SMART, so pretty, so determined, and so independant - she does not skip a beat.  If there is something her brothers are doing, she is definitely right in there doing it too!
             But really.... what happened to my babies???  Rhyse is far from a baby anymore - infact, she seemed to rush out of the baby stage far faster than Ashton did.  Although I absolutely love and cherish all of the new adventures that each new stage in their life brings, I miss the baby phase, and I just can not believe how fast they are growing up.  I tell them everyday that they will always be my babies, and they will.  Yes, they both may get married one day and find another number one in their lives, but who ever said there isn't room for more than one number one?  When the time comes (in a LONG LONG time), I will be willing to share the number one spot with someone.   However, they will always be my babies, and no one can ever take that away from me. 

                 My response to Karyn.... "it flies by in the blink of an eye.... savor it"



Proud mama!!!

My little princess!!


 


Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Hillbilly Heaven

Yesterday was supposed to be a day for Dad and his boys.... due to what I like to refer to as "nonsense" (no further explanation necessary - for those close to us, know exactly what I mean)... I ended up being able to be part of this - and I couldn't have been more ecstatic to be going to the MONSTER TRUCK show with my two favorite guys.  Five years ago, I never would have imagined being excited to go to a monster truck show, but I was!   Ashton was so worried about missing the show that when we woke up on Sunday morning and were getting ready to go to Church, he didn't want to go because he thought that we might miss the 730pm monster truck show.  We arrived at the show at approximately 715 pm and once again Ashton was worried that we had missed the show.  He sat in his seat with his eyes peeled towards the gate where the trucks were supposed to come out.  "mom, did we miss it" he said... "no honey, they will be coming out right away".... those 15 minutes seemed like an eternity to my little 3 year old... but when they came out, the giant smile on his face was definitely the highlight of my night.  For the next hour and a half the three of us hollered and cheered for the giant trucks that raced around the tracks, did wheelies, and even crashed.  Oh, what a night!!!  Although I left the arena with a giant headache from all of the exhaust, my precious little Ashton left the arena with the biggest smile on his face that he even woke up with the next morning...."mom, can we go to the monster trucks again today?"... it is memories like these - of monster trucks - that I never in a million years would have imagined would be part of my life, but the smiles and laughter that I shared with my two favorite guys last night were awesome, and I am so thankful that I was able to be a part of it. 

p.s. my heading of hillbilly heaven was exactly what I thought I would see when I arrived at the monster truck show --- mullets and toothless smiles ---- instead what I saw was moms and dads just like us enjoying seeing their little ones (some may have been toothless) with giant ear to ear grins on their face!!
 



                                  okay, there may have been a few mullets... and a few adults who were smiling from ear to ear with less than 32 teeth.... maybe lucky if they had 15 or 20, but an ear to ear grin is priceless whether you have all 32 or not!!! 









watching the screen to see if his favorite truck won the race


Ashton reading a story to Rhyse the next morning... still wearing his monster truck shirt:)







Thursday, February 9, 2012

Homesick...

I am feeling "homesick" lately... but as I think about where I am homesick for, there is not one specific place.  I think for me homesick is a general term for Canada.  I moved from Paynton to Moose Jaw, to Lloydminster, to Vancouver, to Langley, back to Vancouver, and then to Prince Albert for a majority of my life in Canada, and each one of them was home to me.  What is it about Canada that I miss so much??
- the people
- the beauty
- the healthcare system
- home made wine
- bunnyhugs rather than hoodies
- northern lights
- people who know how to drive when it snows
- kilometers rather than miles
- celsius rather than fahrenheit
- homecooked meals from scratch
- my dog Liz
- endless pots of coffee

- I could go on and on...
...........but most of all, what I miss are my family and friends... although I have great family and friends here in the U.S... my Canadian family and friends are the core of who I am.  They have been with me through my many ups and downs that brought me to this country;  they have smiled with me, cried with me, and laughed with me along the way.  This summer can not come soon enough for me to go "home".  Until then, I am so very lucky to have unlimited long distance, my dual citizen children who have learned Canadian words such as "bum", and "toque", my husband who reminds me daily of one of the reasons why I live here with his endless love and support,  facebook to see familiar faces, and of course my friends and family here in the U.S. who also remind me daily that the United States is a great country also filled with amazing people, and I am very lucky to have the best of both worlds.














Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Nice people make a huge difference!

Today, Jimmy and I had to deal with the I.R.S which usually is a PAINFUL process - especially when it is due to nonsense! ( I could have a whole other blog related to "nonsense", but completely not worth my time!)... today however, I was surprised beyond words when the man with whom we spoke to was the most pleasant, the most helpful, and the most understanding IRS agent I have encountered EVER!!!  What a difference it makes to deal with people who are all of these three things.  When we were done conversing with him, I knew my day was going to be a great one!  So, thanks Mister I.R.S. guy... you transformed what could have been a crappy situation turned crappy day into so much more!  After this I trekked my butt to the gym for a three mile run with my new running shoes, and had a smile on my face the whole time.  Nice people make a huge difference!!